Been hiding

Sorry havent written anything. I just havent been much motivated. I get random spurts of motivation that seems to all go into my art. The rest just fizzles away in the damn games on facebook....

Too addictive...

I feel like a 12yr old lately. I mean, my room is covered in animal, band and horsey-art posters and two large bookcases full of books ranging from cute childrens picture books, to vampire books (not twilight). And I have a recent obsession with cute things 0.o

I love bugs and lizards and my awesome betta fish. I love my art and my horse models and wolf blanket.

But none of these things really scream '19 year old girl!'

I dunno, I have issues. And although I do love all my things, and dont want to part with them.. Im getting scared what people will think...

Im having a party soon, and all my friends.. well most my friends.. will be coming, including my ex and people I havent seen in a year... and theyre all 'normal' teenagers who dont obsess over horses and drawing. They obsess over parties, boyfriends/girlfriends, shopping, going out.. 'normal' things!

Im just getting scared that theyll take one look at my room and laugh at me or shun me......


*sigh*

*Whine whine*

Well I had fun last night, didnt drink too much, just enough to be 'happy' but not enough to lose my senses :)

I went out with my Mother, a friend, and her son. I was casually talking to the son throughout the night, and he tried to kiss me... caught me very much off-guard. Because well, Im 18, and he is 25.. which isnt desperately a big age difference, but he just isnt the sort of guy Id like to be with..

Anyway, in short, I didnt kiss him.. told him sorry, that we've both been drinking, and dont want to do anything stupid.

*feels sensible*

Also, the reason for this post, and the major lacking of posts lately is because I havent been feeling very 'happy' lately.. Ive been getting very very upset, and very angry lately.. which hasnt made me much in the mood for blogging nor art. I did draw up a dragon sketch though that I am quite proud of.

Ill colour it eventually..

Now for the whining, I feel I can say this here, because none of my family know of this blog, and only a close real life friend knows it...

So Ill tell you a bit about my life.

I have a screwed up family. We're like a group of strangers living in a house together. Its just my mother, little brother and I.. but we never spend any 'family time' together. We're not very social, or happy bunch of people. All of us have some sort of mental disorder, I suffer from depression and anxiety, and have to take medication for it.. so does my mother, and my little brother has ADHD and aspergers..

Fun fun...

So lately, mother has been very stressed, and she takes it out on me. She really doesnt support my art, which is the only thing keeping me sane, and always says its a 'waste of time', and she yells at me and puts me down.. its no fun :(

I also have only one 'real life' friend who I can talk to about this, but she cannot really understand.

I have some awesome devart friends, who Id be lost without, that really keep me going. Id be lost without devart :S

Anyway.. enough whining, I hope today will be good.. and mother gets into a better mood soon...

Have a lovely day,

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Hymns

Wes Carr and Mossy concert

Im a little bit drunk, so this post shall be short! XD

Ive just gotten back from a small concert with Wes Carr, the winner of Aus. Idol, and Ian Moss, the guitarist for Cold Chisel.. the bloody best Aussie band ever! XD

I love rock music, anything with a good guitarist, bass and a strong singer is awesome! XD

Plus, Wes Carr isnt too bad to look at either :P

Heres a picture of me with Wes Carr (loooooove leather jackets on guys... *drool*) and a video of him and Cold Chisel.. enjoy! :D

Birthdayyyy :D

Its my puppy Mojo's birthday today! :D He is now 3 years old :D So.. not really much of a puppy anymore, but I loves him.

He's a longhair german shepherd, and a complete sook. He is a oversized lap-dog, all he ever wants is to curl up in my room and sleep :)

Sorry for the crappy photo... but hey, I have my dA site to post good pics.. I dont want to stress about quality here XD

I bought a fish tank :)

Im really happy.

I bought a 30 gallon / 115 liter fish tank the other day. Its pretty cool, so now Im all excited about fish and trying to get the right ones, and to get everything my fish will need :D

Im also looking at getting a 3ft fish tank and divide it up for my betta fish


When I bought the tank it was fiiiilthy! I spent maybe 6hrs cleaning it, here are some photos :)

BEFORE

AFTER

Sorry bout shocking quality photo.. I still havent got fish in it, need to get it all working and clean and figure out what fish to put in it :P

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Had another good day

This is me today, I got bored and plaited some plaits in my hair :P I quite like the look, I might do it again some time :)

I went out shopping today, just with mother and my cousins and Satan. I spent too much, but I was happy that I actually had a decent amount of money.. I bought that blue top Im wearing there >>

Looks quite nice really.

Also bought some skirts and pants, tops and couple of books.. most things were second hand, so they only cost me about $5 XD

When I got back I went over accross the road, to my neighbors place, just to be social. Was nice talking with them and just catching up.

I think Ive said here before, but they breed english staffies, theyre wonderful dogs, I want to take at least 2 of their dogs home with me :D

Ive had little motivation to draw really.. even though there is so much I want to draw..

Royal is still alive, my betta fish I bought the other day. He is settling in very well :) He is still very very beautiful <3

I really want to find another betta somewhere, so I will then have three :P

Hmmm....

Well, my back is really quite hurting now.. it always seems to if I sit or stand for a long time... it really hurts.. I should probably go lie down and sleep now.. is already 1.11am :o

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Had a good day

Went out to a nature reserve / tourist spot today, felt a bit odd going to a tourist place when I live here, but it was nice.

Was a place where you can feed the wild birds, they come right up to you and land on your arms, shoulders, even your head :)

Was fun :)

I got a few nice photos too.

The birds were lovely.

But one bloody big cockatoo thought he'd be smart and bite me so I drop the seeds Im holding on to... but no, Im used to be bitten by a german shepherd, so this dang cockatoo was nothing, I just flicked him away when he finally let go of me.

Still have a red mark on my thumb from where he bit me though.

N that was a good 7hrs ago.


N when I say "Im used to be bitten by a german shepherd", its when playing, my puppy is in no way aggressive, I wouldnt put up with it. He's like a giant lap-dog that gets over excited and playful sometimes... and has big teeth...

:)

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Breyer Model

I bought my first Breyer model today :) From eBay and in America, so it will take a while to come.. but Im still happy :D

Its the Keltec Salinaro model, I love that gelding :D

Feelin blue

Been feeling a bit depressed lately, my crazy pills dont work as well as they used to : /

But oh well, Im thinking of buying a couple more Bettas, I think Im getting a little obsessed with em :P Theyre so pretty :)

Lets talk about the weather

Bloody rain!

Its been pouring down since day before last, and the power has gone out a few times. I dont mind rain, its the cold I dont like, and oddly enough I dont like the heat either..

Anyway, Im sick of rain, and Im very sick of having to keep all the animals inside because of it. They all follow me around like my shadow, and if theyre not with me, theyre sooking.

Im starting to read a bit more now though, Im reading 'The Dark' by James Herbert, so far its awesome :P I like this author, not as much as Anne Rice, but still awesome :P

Im also doing another A3 traditional piece, this time of a wolf for a friend, so far Im really happy with it :P

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Party

Went to a party last night, havent been to one in months.. Ive become rather unsocial lately.

The party was fun, didnt drink as much as usual, which is good. There was a shite-load of bubble wrap around, just for the hell-of-it.. twas cool.

Caught up with a few people I havent seen for ages.

*unmotivated*

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Brand new Betta

I will probably kill Billy if he eats this guy.. well not really, but Id be bloody angry...

I named him Royal, cause he is epic awesome :P

 

New Bettas 2.0

Last Lonely Betta

This is Albie, he is now alone. 

Albie is awesome.

Poor Albie.

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Murderer

The cat killed one of my fish.

My first Betta Fish I dubbed 'Fella'.

Stupid cat.

He' staying outside for a few days now.

Though I doubt he'll care, nice weather, so its not much a punishment.

I have mixed feelings about this, I really liked Fella, but he was still a fish.. so Im upset, but not...

I dunno...

RIP Fella D:

Changes in the breed

 

To

Thats the German lines...

Aaaand

 

To

 

Thats the American lines

Bloody show people. I want to bring back the old fashioned good looks of the old type German Shepherds, the ones with few health problems and no inbreeding. I mean, seriously, look at the hind legs of the last picture!! What the hell ...

Anyway, have a look at http://www.asuperiorgsd.com/p2p.html For more pictures and descriptions, a wonderful site :)

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Lovely day

Ive had a lovely day.

Slept till twelve, went out to a shopping center with mother to look around a bit, I bought some books and a scarf :P Then went to the hospital to visit my grandma aka. Babi, then came back home to go over and see the awesome neighbors accross the road who breed the staffies.

Ive been thinking of ohter dog breeds I can get into breeding, because German Shepherds are everywhere it seems.. but I dont know. I just love them! I dont think I really could own any other breed..

Possibly dobermans, but I dont really like their build. I like the solid looking dogs with thick fur and kind, strong intelligent faces :P

All the things a german shepherd is. But only the working lines or german lines, I really dont like the american show lines... too thin and ... iik :o

 

From http://www.thedogs-bollocks.com/IMG_03962.jpg Such beautiful dogs!

Evil brother

My damned brother Satan is being exceptionally annoying today. He's just constantly yelling and hooting and just being so damn rude and spoilt..

Grrrrr....

Siren

The town fire siren is going off. Hopefully just  a false alarm..

I live in a small-ish town, surrounded by bush. Bushfires are a problem.

Earlier this year there was Black Saturday, one of the major fires there was only 13km away from my house.

Apparently this year the fire threat will be worse.

High temperatures and massive winds, not so good for anyone living in the bush :(

The siren has stopped now, it goes off quite frequently, but I know that when the weather warms up, Ill be having a heart attack every time I hear it, in fear of a fire being close again...

:(

Hymns.

Mouse hunt pt.2

This time Kitty caught a mouse, another little one.

Ive become a bit obsessed with the mouse hunt. Every time I go into the living room, and I see the vent, I get paranoid about the mice somewhere in it.

Thankfully our cats are good at what they do.

Billy can only catch them when theyre out of the vent, cause of his boof-head wont fir in, but kitty can crawl right in there..

Ahhh the amusement.

Dog breeding

Been looking again for german shepherd pups.

Ive givin my horse search a break until I learn more.

But Ive been wanting to start breeding german shepherds for a while now, and I have friends who breed english staffies who are willing to mentor me.

There are a lot of real nice looking working line ones.

I prefer the solid darker/red ones than the showline black/tan thin ones.

Idealy Id like to import one straight from germany, but I think I might just start a little smaller than that.. :)

I also think that I will have trouble trying to convince the breeders to give me a female to be used for breeding.. in my experience, theyre snobby bastards. But Thats where my staffy breeder friends come in, they said that they could call and explain what I plan to do and hopefully give the GSD breeders more confidence in me.

Well anyway, Ill keep looking, I dont have any money now, but I will soon.

I gotta sleep, its past 2am already ^^"

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Mouse hunt

My cat Billy caught a mouse tonight.

Sort of freaked me out because I had no idea we even had mice in the house.

Thank god we have cats to keep away the mice and evil spirts.

Theyre now hunting around for the rest of them, for the one he caught was young, so their must be more around.

Theyre really interested in a heating vent in the dining room.

I hope they get them all.

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New riding centre

Had a proper riding lesson today. With a qualified instructor at a different centre to the last.

After having this lesson, I really do not like the other centre. Not only was I being taught by a girl younger than me, but she didnt teach me anything.. even taught me a few wrong things.

She kept telling me to kick the horse, harder and harder until he moved.. I didnt like doing that at all.. she didnt say anything about just tightening your legs on them.. dunno how to say.. all she said was 'kick him' ....

Also I was just thrown on a horse in an arena, I know the horse was very quiet.. but still, I liked how at the new place the instructor had me walk around with the horse for a while, and told me about what to do on her and how to stop/start etc. then had her on a lunge line when I mounted, which was good, then halfway through the lesson, I was taken off the lunge line.. but not before practicing the rising trot, stop, start, posture etc.

The new place was good. I learnt a hell of a lot.

Especially with the rising trot, the other girl just said 'stand up and sit down as he trots, and keep doing that'.. the better instructor told me how to stand, made sure I could do it ... twas harder than I thought when standing still.. and told me that you really stand forward rather than straight up, bend knees etc.

Twas good.

But Im in pain from it.. and veeeery sleep deprived, Ive been out of the house all day. First to pick up a artist-desk thing, really just a slanted desk so I dont have to lean over my work when I draw, my back is really hurting from doing that.. then t wait at centerlink to fill out damn forms, I hate centerlink.. then to the hospital to see my grandmother, who I call Babi cause we're czech .. she was in a car accident, a few broken bones.. I hope she will be okay, Im sure she will be.. then back home in time for the riding lesson..

Been a long day.

And I hurt.

And I know its only going to be worse tomorrow...

*dies*

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Traditional Art Hates Me

For the better part of last night and today I have been working on a picture tat I foolishly decided to colour with pencils... *le sigh* This isnt my worst traditional piece, but still, for the hours I spent on it, Im a bit disappointed.

I dunno, Im a bit proud of it.. mostly the lineart though, its something new to draw for me, so Im proud I made it relatively good looking..

New riding place - poor puppy

Ive decided to get lessons at another centre, the last place I went to wasnt quite what I wanted.. but I believe I have found another that is worth looking at. I have a lesson on wednesday

I want to learn how to take care of a horse, grooming, putting on and taking off tack, general horse health and of course how to ride properly.. and one day Id like to explore jumping and dressage, but not until I have basics learnt XD

My soreness from my last ride has finally gone, yays :D

I havent been doing much else, mother is all stressed out as usual, and it seems my job to calm her. Satan is being Satan-ish. And my dogs are being major sooks as always.

Mojo seems really depressed lately.. not his usual Hyper self.. he's sleeping a lot, but he still looks healthy and is not sore anywhere.. mybe he's just being lazy and waiting for the weather to get better so he ca go out more..

I still really need a job, and to learn how to drive.. but all I want to do is draw! Its horrible :(

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I feel old

I have such crappy joints and back.. right now my back is kiiilling me, it hurts so damn much D: Ive been drawing a lot lately, and because I have a flat desk, not a slanted one, I tend to lean over my work, which hurts...

*sigh* Time to look on ebay for a artists desk.

Also my brother, aka. Satan, lost his first tooth today, hurray for him.

Also, is AUS$60 too much to be paying for riding lessons? Theyre an hour long at a great facility.. but I dunno..

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Owwie

My.. inner legs hurt.

Maybe I shouldve taken them more seriously when they said 'youd be hurting tomorrow' after my lesson..

But oh well, no big problem :D I can deal with pain.

Oh! I made cookies, so Im happy.

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Squeeee

Finished my riding lesson :D

Was uber good. I was riding a 15hh 6yr old lazy boy named Pete, he's a bay standardbred and he was all flooofy. *loves the floofyness*

I didnt fall off. Which is awesome. I also got stuck on him though... I dont think I can get off well.... I tried a few different ways, but my body doesnt bend much ^^"

But he was lovely, even my n00bness didnt seem to bother him.

His walk was probably the slowest walk ever! but his trot was nice, very bumpy, I have to get used to standing up and down as he trots.. I almost had it today.

He hated going in the puddles (it was all wet and icky today) and kept wanting to go his own way. Ive got to be a bit tougher with him I suppose.

Ill get the hang of it soon :)

Im going to book in weekly lessons. Ill stay on Pete for a while, until I get a bit more confidence, then when the instructor thinks its okay, Ill try a different horse.

Costs me AUS$60 for an hour lesson.. I think I need a job. Maybe when I know more about them, I can help out around the centre for a discount.

:)

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Horse riding lessons

Booked in my first ever horse riding lesson for tomorrow.

Wish me luck!

The person I talked to over the phone sounded nice, had to ask my height and weight and such.. I have no clue what I weigh, Im 'festively plump' XD

Im real excited about the lesson, no doubt youll be hearing about it tomorrow. I really hope I dont make a fool of myself ..

Im going to be having weekly or bi-weekly lessons.. I need em if Im going to get a horse.

The search is depressing me, I keep seeing 'not for beginner' 'suit experienced rider' 'suit confident rider'... *sigh* No one would let me buy their horse.. but I suppose I dont blame them.

My brother, the antichrist

He seriously is..

Evil little bugger.

He's only seven, and I swear he is evil. He woke me up, and probably the whole street, but screaming and yelling for mother to get up. God forbid you do something he doesnt want you to!

*dies*

He does have ADHD and probably aspergers, but I dont care. He's a brat. He's constantly screaming orders at you and sooking if you say no.

I have veeeery little tolerance for him. He's the only one who can really piss me off.

Dog is back

After being gone over 3hrs, my dog is back.

I can breathe again, she is safe and unharmed.

Thank god.

I still hate those other dogs though.

We've tried so damn much to keep our dogs in. But it seems the nuisance dogs just torment our dogs whenever theyre outside but just constantly barking at them until my dogs go over to them.

Bloody dogs..

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Bloody dogs

I knew today was going to be a shit day.

First of all, I woke up nicely, all happy and jolly, then as I was stretching the tiredness from my muscles I strained one.. it bloody cramped up on me like a vice was crushing it. Twas my calf muscle too, so now Ill be limping around like an idiot for a while.. its been quite a few hours since then and it still hurts! Grrr....

Anyway, then as I let my dogs out to do their... business.. the bloody nuisance dogs across the road call them over. I wasnt fast enough to get both my dogs inside so one has ran off.. its been 2-3 hours since then, and she is still not back.

And those bloody dogs just keep barking!

I went for a walk to try and find my dog, but with no luck. If she's been picked up by the pound Im going to get reeeally shitty!


Im sick of the dogs across the road. They are constantly barking.

And we have to keep our dogs locked inside all day or else the nuisance dogs keep barking until they come over.

Bloody hell....


I hope she gets back soon.

Im getting really scared that somethings happened to her.

Hymns.

Wanna go outsiiide

Didnt feel like looking for any horses today. Tis a bit too stressful for me.

I did however get rid of heaps of art on my to-do list :D Im so much closer to doing art for myself again :D

I feel like I should be talking about something serious, but Im really not in a serious mood right now. Im in a rather tired mood really .. I wish to go out someday soon and take more photos or just go for a walk to my favourite place in the forest beneath an old bridge and just.. I dunno, sketch, take photos, read, anything! I havent been outside much for soooo long :( Its just so darn cold! The moment I step outside all I wanna do is snuggle back into my nice warm bed..


Mmmmm, bed... sounds good...

But Im still a little too pepped up. Maybe I could read a bit, Ive nearly finished White Fang.. I really like how its not all "happy and flowers and rainbows" n crap.. its really realistic-esc.

I also like how they have how the wolf is thinking, but not /what/ it is thinking.. like its not talking...

*le sigh* Im babbling now.

Im sorry.

Ill leave you to your wanderings :)

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Why hat?

"Hymns in a Hat"

Thats my URL name thingy.

Reason is, Im Hymns and I wear a hat bloody everywhere.

Thats cause I have had chemical burns to my scalp + skin grafts... blah blah..

Anyway, thats why I am Hymns in a Hat :)

Please dont ask for more details, it really doesnt change who I am at all :)

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A little pony

Ive been working on this little pony thing for a few days now.

Yush I uber suck at scultures!

Shuddup.... ^^"

But Im proud of it, and I think is cute. Im going to paint it next, then find some yarn or something for the mane and tail.

Chibbis are awesome. Hopefully next I can make a bigger and more awesome one :P

ROFLMAOLOL

Yes thats me. I figured its cool to have a face to the writer, so there you go.

I feel like a tool for uploading a photo of myself taken by a webcam. But Im too lazy to even attempt to take a proper one.

But oh well.

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TB Mare

*Uber caffinated*

Hmm, well it seems there are a lot of TBs around, and some are goooorgeous! I called up a lady about her 10yr old 16.2hh chestnut TB mare today, and she said that she had the sweetest temperament and is very suitable for beginners. Uber awesome :)

Only issue, she's no longer with them.. no not dead, but owned by someone else, but by what the lady said, they are not happy with the horse, as they want one of a higher level to go into competitions and such.. yadda yadda.. so she is going to give them my number for when they sell the horse.

*Fingers crossed*

This is a lovely sounding mare, I hope I get the chance to see her and if all looks good.. buy her :)

But no, Ill still not jump to loving this mare, just for what I can tell she seems ideal.

Anywho! *rant rave*

I cant seem to sit still, and that has caused me to babble about something no one but me is really interested in.. my apologies.

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Ad Frustration

Today Im having yet another lazy day, so far no caffeine so Im sorry but this post shall be bland.

Ill probably start again my search for a horse through online advertisements, but not find anything but stupidity. It seriously making my brain bleed all the poorly written and bad photographed ads I see :(

I want a horse damnit, but Im not going to pick the first one I see or like. Im being very serious here. As I have practically no riding experience I need a sensible horse. As I am quite tall, I need a horse who is also quite tall. I need one between 8-12yrs old and $2000-10,000. I care nothing for colour or breed.. but alas this is surprisingly hard to find.. and when I find one that is right, I doubt they would let it go to someone as inexperienced as me *cries*

So I am going to get riding lessons, only I have contacted a local equestrian centre and they havent contacted me back... *sigh* This is clearly going to take a while..

Anyway, I might do some drawing later to calm my nerves, Ive also been reading a lot lately, at the moment Im reading White Fang by John London.. tis pretty cool :)


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Intro

G'day,

Im 18 and people call me Hymns or Elle. You may call me Pinnochio if it makes you happy it makes no difference :)

I am a strange teenager as I dont tend to think like one and certainly not act like one. I suppose you would call me childish or a loner.. however I am not childish, given that I have not had any caffine but I suppose I am a loner, I prefer to say Im an "artist" .... bad joke bad joke..

Im going to write here whatever I wish, I want to voice my opinions about things, pimp my art and hopefully learn a few things from passers by, maybe I could even teach you a few things.

Some things I suppose Ill talk about are my pets, everyone of them seems insane, one even eats fluff But I love them. And some of their antics are too good to ignore.

Ill also be talking about my search for a horse and whatever interesting things I find on the way.

I hope you enjoy my blog, for it is my boredom + excess caffeine that makes it :D

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