Been hiding

Sorry havent written anything. I just havent been much motivated. I get random spurts of motivation that seems to all go into my art. The rest just fizzles away in the damn games on facebook....

Too addictive...

I feel like a 12yr old lately. I mean, my room is covered in animal, band and horsey-art posters and two large bookcases full of books ranging from cute childrens picture books, to vampire books (not twilight). And I have a recent obsession with cute things 0.o

I love bugs and lizards and my awesome betta fish. I love my art and my horse models and wolf blanket.

But none of these things really scream '19 year old girl!'

I dunno, I have issues. And although I do love all my things, and dont want to part with them.. Im getting scared what people will think...

Im having a party soon, and all my friends.. well most my friends.. will be coming, including my ex and people I havent seen in a year... and theyre all 'normal' teenagers who dont obsess over horses and drawing. They obsess over parties, boyfriends/girlfriends, shopping, going out.. 'normal' things!

Im just getting scared that theyll take one look at my room and laugh at me or shun me......


*sigh*

*Whine whine*

Well I had fun last night, didnt drink too much, just enough to be 'happy' but not enough to lose my senses :)

I went out with my Mother, a friend, and her son. I was casually talking to the son throughout the night, and he tried to kiss me... caught me very much off-guard. Because well, Im 18, and he is 25.. which isnt desperately a big age difference, but he just isnt the sort of guy Id like to be with..

Anyway, in short, I didnt kiss him.. told him sorry, that we've both been drinking, and dont want to do anything stupid.

*feels sensible*

Also, the reason for this post, and the major lacking of posts lately is because I havent been feeling very 'happy' lately.. Ive been getting very very upset, and very angry lately.. which hasnt made me much in the mood for blogging nor art. I did draw up a dragon sketch though that I am quite proud of.

Ill colour it eventually..

Now for the whining, I feel I can say this here, because none of my family know of this blog, and only a close real life friend knows it...

So Ill tell you a bit about my life.

I have a screwed up family. We're like a group of strangers living in a house together. Its just my mother, little brother and I.. but we never spend any 'family time' together. We're not very social, or happy bunch of people. All of us have some sort of mental disorder, I suffer from depression and anxiety, and have to take medication for it.. so does my mother, and my little brother has ADHD and aspergers..

Fun fun...

So lately, mother has been very stressed, and she takes it out on me. She really doesnt support my art, which is the only thing keeping me sane, and always says its a 'waste of time', and she yells at me and puts me down.. its no fun :(

I also have only one 'real life' friend who I can talk to about this, but she cannot really understand.

I have some awesome devart friends, who Id be lost without, that really keep me going. Id be lost without devart :S

Anyway.. enough whining, I hope today will be good.. and mother gets into a better mood soon...

Have a lovely day,

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Hymns

Wes Carr and Mossy concert

Im a little bit drunk, so this post shall be short! XD

Ive just gotten back from a small concert with Wes Carr, the winner of Aus. Idol, and Ian Moss, the guitarist for Cold Chisel.. the bloody best Aussie band ever! XD

I love rock music, anything with a good guitarist, bass and a strong singer is awesome! XD

Plus, Wes Carr isnt too bad to look at either :P

Heres a picture of me with Wes Carr (loooooove leather jackets on guys... *drool*) and a video of him and Cold Chisel.. enjoy! :D

Birthdayyyy :D

Its my puppy Mojo's birthday today! :D He is now 3 years old :D So.. not really much of a puppy anymore, but I loves him.

He's a longhair german shepherd, and a complete sook. He is a oversized lap-dog, all he ever wants is to curl up in my room and sleep :)

Sorry for the crappy photo... but hey, I have my dA site to post good pics.. I dont want to stress about quality here XD

I bought a fish tank :)

Im really happy.

I bought a 30 gallon / 115 liter fish tank the other day. Its pretty cool, so now Im all excited about fish and trying to get the right ones, and to get everything my fish will need :D

Im also looking at getting a 3ft fish tank and divide it up for my betta fish


When I bought the tank it was fiiiilthy! I spent maybe 6hrs cleaning it, here are some photos :)

BEFORE

AFTER

Sorry bout shocking quality photo.. I still havent got fish in it, need to get it all working and clean and figure out what fish to put in it :P

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Hymns

Had another good day

This is me today, I got bored and plaited some plaits in my hair :P I quite like the look, I might do it again some time :)

I went out shopping today, just with mother and my cousins and Satan. I spent too much, but I was happy that I actually had a decent amount of money.. I bought that blue top Im wearing there >>

Looks quite nice really.

Also bought some skirts and pants, tops and couple of books.. most things were second hand, so they only cost me about $5 XD

When I got back I went over accross the road, to my neighbors place, just to be social. Was nice talking with them and just catching up.

I think Ive said here before, but they breed english staffies, theyre wonderful dogs, I want to take at least 2 of their dogs home with me :D

Ive had little motivation to draw really.. even though there is so much I want to draw..

Royal is still alive, my betta fish I bought the other day. He is settling in very well :) He is still very very beautiful <3

I really want to find another betta somewhere, so I will then have three :P

Hmmm....

Well, my back is really quite hurting now.. it always seems to if I sit or stand for a long time... it really hurts.. I should probably go lie down and sleep now.. is already 1.11am :o

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Hymns

Had a good day

Went out to a nature reserve / tourist spot today, felt a bit odd going to a tourist place when I live here, but it was nice.

Was a place where you can feed the wild birds, they come right up to you and land on your arms, shoulders, even your head :)

Was fun :)

I got a few nice photos too.

The birds were lovely.

But one bloody big cockatoo thought he'd be smart and bite me so I drop the seeds Im holding on to... but no, Im used to be bitten by a german shepherd, so this dang cockatoo was nothing, I just flicked him away when he finally let go of me.

Still have a red mark on my thumb from where he bit me though.

N that was a good 7hrs ago.


N when I say "Im used to be bitten by a german shepherd", its when playing, my puppy is in no way aggressive, I wouldnt put up with it. He's like a giant lap-dog that gets over excited and playful sometimes... and has big teeth...

:)

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Hymns